....when you can dance

"What can you do with a heavy soul?"


1 Cor. 1:18

"For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved....it is the power of God".


My God, how many times have I heard that verse? Why does it take such a small mind 25 years to process and fully understand the meaning of a simple phrase?

I dug into an old cd collection tonight by mistake. I meant to look for a dvd for the wife and I to watch. Instead, I was confronted by an intimate stranger. A stranger whom I had once known in such a close, impressionistic way until I started living life.

This is life that Solomon (arguably the wisest man who ever lived) called "meaningless".

I look around me and feel ok most of the time...so why is this striking me like this?

I can say only this...........I'm thankful. I haven't been coming to God, so He has come to me. Why he even bothers, I'll never know....but I'm thankful.

Here I am tonight....sitting here at my computer....typing these words of freedom when inside I'm so heavy....heavy, but determined for change. I'm asking, "If not now, then when"?